[yes, that was a Rocky Horror reference]
I was all ready to head out the door today for a run when I thought maybe I should wait for the FedEx guy since I was supposed to get a new pair of shoes delivered today. So I did everything I could to delay my run until I realized that my window of opportunity to run today was going to disappear.
I had to tear myself from the house to get out and run (which, by the way, felt great – the run, that is, not the tearing away).
Was the anticipation of those new running shoes, in and of itself, something that could literally hold me back from one of the greatest joys in my life – being out on the trails and running in nature?
Wow…that was…well…messed up!
I had to wonder how many times I’d put my life on hold waiting for something, for that “perfect” something, only to find that I had wasted a precious opportunity to be in the moment.
As you’ve probably seen in previous posts, I love to find the derivation of words and anticipation is a great example. Its original meaning, based on the Latin it’s derived from, means “taking into possession beforehand”. How perfect is that? How many things have we anticipated acting as if they were a done deal only to be disappointed when they didn’t occur? Or consider the short end of the anticipation stick – dread – how often have we ached because of what we thought could come or might only to realize we had clenched and winced for no reason at all?
I’m not suggesting that we should never look forward to something; that’s probably unrealistic and possibly stifles one’s spirit. I suppose it’s akin to the difference between desire and craving or craving and addiction. When the anticipation becomes a single-minded attention to the future at the expense of the present – that’s where problems come from.
So watch for those tell-tale phrases that could be warning signs for you: “as soon as…” and “if only…”
If your happiness, your sense of fulfillment is tied to these phrases you could well be losing out on some of the best moments of your life, right here, right now.